deep down.

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice.

Deep in my heart, I'm suffering, knowing that I've lost you. On the outside, I'm living, pretending that I've forgotten you.

The hardest thing to do is watch someone you love, love someone else.


This is only half of what i feel deep inside me.  ♥♥♥

26th nov. (:

GENTING HIGHLANDS. :D ahahahahah. gile random kan. :D ahahha. if people ask what random fact about em. juz say they re random. ahahahah. :D our moms pregnant fer us randomly. ahahha. they gave birth to us randomly. and dats y we do everything randomly. :) ahahahahha.

                                                           wtv. i ♥ my darlings. :))

22nd nov. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANI.! 

went to nailis. and to karaoke at cheras. lolx. (: damn cun. (: 

♥♥♥

17th & 18th nov 09.

port dickson guys.! ((: ahahhaah. me, min min, danny, ryan, kaurey and loq.! :D  6 of us. :D it was SO much fun. coz we went to da beach twice.! first night we went to da beach, and we tapau some pizzas, and we ate da pizza, n we built a campfire. ahahah. it was so cute. (: ahahah. n then the very next day, we went to beach again. its a private beach. n nobody was der except for us.! :D ahaahha. n oh. this time, we hanged at da beach for quite sometime actually. ahah. we did lots of crazy things. esp ryan n danny. they went to catched some crabs. ahah. crap rite.? ahahaha. :D n they put em in a bottle. a mineral bottle. LOL. but seriously.! lots n lots n lots of crabs back there. grrr... ahaha. n then it was raining.! n all of us except for loq were all wet. so, loq drove the car back to the apartment while 5 of us were walking and we climbed a gate. coz if we use the front gate, it would be so far for us, so we used the back gate. but we had to climb. n yea. we managed to climbed the gate. ahahah. n then while its raining, we swam in the swimming pool. except for me. ahaha. coz the pool is so fucking deep. damn. ): scary. ahaha. n yeah. n then some guys joined us. so, we went upstairs and took a nap. ahahah. ((: it was so much fun.! seriously. looking forward to go on vacation with em again.! :DD

love u darlings. ♥♥♥

12th & 13th nov 09. (:

penang penang. we went there for 2 days n a night. the night was a bit boring... coz we didnt know where to go and what to do. it was just the two of us. my sister had to sleep early for work the next day. so, she couldnt layan us and all. so, we were on our own. lolx.!

at night, we were sooooo damn fucking hungry doe. seriously. like starving like that. fuck shit. ahahah. i thought wanna order mcd or dominos or smtg.. coz it was damn late ady, around 3 am i think. so yeah. i called mcd. n i asked that operator guy to deliver to our hotel, eastin hotel. but sadly.. that motherfucker said mcd around our hotel is closed, so they cant deliver it to us. so, we were like wtf sial. sokay la. what else to do right. *sigh.* so we ordered from room service.! ahahahahah. yeah, we actually did that doe. coz we were starving to death ady. ahahha. we ordered a fried rice, with a drumstick, a fried egg, 3 fish crackers and sambal belacan. n it ws rm27.60 doe. ahahahha. damn expensive for us. ahahah. but sokay. had to. no choice. LOL.

the next day was better. coz we went to batu feringghi.! :D it was fun. we hanged around hard rock hotel. damn damn damn. fucking nice.! the hotel is simple, but its fucking nice.  u gotta fucking believe me. damn.! and behind the hotel is the hard rock cafe. n there r 2 pools. n omfg.! how i wish we stayed at the hard rock hotel rather than that stupid boring eastin hotel. ahah.

but yeah. the trip was nice actually. coz atleast i spent time with my darling, min min. ahahha. :D  xoxo min min.! :DD


                                                                        ♥♥♥

helo. (:

damn. so long didnt even checked my blog. been very busy with my life lately. trying to get up here when the love just knocked me down. (:

sometimes love comes around. and when ey knock u down. just get back up when ey knock u down. - dedicated by sonja sya to me. knock u down. LOL.


                                                                                               ♥♥♥

random night. (:

what a night. i told danny to cheer me up. end up we went clubbing, and randomly went to a hotel..~ bah.! tanx darling.! ♥

min min also laa..wont forget her la. but pity her kena kacau dengan orang iran. lolx.! ♥

while me. ('x im happy fr awhile. n now im sad again.

♥ tanx danny n min min. (x ♥

holiday in november. (:

(this is what i need now to relax my mind.)

holy holy.! here comes holiday.!~ teehee...~ its like, this monday is my last claz for this sem, n i only have to wait til final which is on the 7th dec. yea, i just dropped 2 subjects. so im taking only one subject, which is micro. haihx. n next sem jumpe miss michelle again. shell be lecturing macroeconomics pulak. aduh. xO n den.... on tuesday... im going to peeeeenang.~ weeee...~ cant wait. just me n my sister. but yeah. shes going there to work. i just go der n teman her only. if i wana bring anyone can la coz shes like dont want me to get bored while shes working.. but idk.. i dont have many galfrens. n sadly i can only bring galfrens, unless dat guy wana pay for his room, then nevermind lor. hehe. but idk. if there is no one to follow me, ill be alone in penang till friday.n i am sooooo gonna spend my whole time at the beach. omg.! cant waitttt... (: but yeah. for sure im gonna miss my friends. but wtv man. i mean, i had enough of thinking bout other people so now mayb its time for me to think bout myself. but yeah. m so gonna buy souvenirs for em. (: seriously, i cant wait.!! ♥